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Time

Future changes past. Leela has patiently explained her view of time to me, to the extent that's possible, to help me understand how her guidance works in my life. I have to confess I just don't get her 5-space version of things. She's also explained why that is and will continue to be the case. In any case I've altered my patterns of behavior to accommodate her outlandish ideas because that's how my life works now. I now routinely encounter examples of the present or future altering the past. Stepping outside the limited but valid view that only the present exists, what I see are examples of my moment of destiny in 2006 affecting all parts of my life, from before I was born until right now, and clearly extending into future and yes even past lives. Waking up a little bit changed my past present and future for the better. That little bit waking up gave birth to the magic weaving all through my life, what I see as my own private magic. But of course it's not mine at all; Leela's not mine, I'm hers. The magic of surrender is the antidote to the taint of holiness. Holiness tainted my every attempt at making progress with love until I overthrew everything and turned to my own internal authority for help.

Dimensions. Leela blew apart my limited understanding of time as she was teaching me about reincarnation. That story is told in the first three paragraphs of Reincarnation. The fourth paragraph explains why I still don't get it, and never will.